round and round

That crazy energy is still cursing through me. I panic that nothing will happen. That nothing will change but everything already has.

It is a beautiful, warm day here in LA. It is a beautiful, warm January day. I’m feeling restless but also pleased. This right now is really as good as it gets. Not when something happens, not when goals are met but right now as I make my way there.

I have been trying to meditate every morning to no avail. I’m not kidding when I say I’m restless. There are so many possiblities now that did not exist before. An underlying sense that everythng is going to work out fills me up and leaves me too excited for words.